Still

Do you still think of me?
Do you still hate me 
As much as you screamed you did? 

 
 

Do you still 
hit Hate Women?

 
 

Do you still use your hands to hurt?
Do you still stifle her screams 
With your fist?

 
 

Do you still despise her fear?
Do you still want to beat it out of her?
Do you still use your prick 
As a weapon?

 
 

Do you still own the gun?
Do you still think of her 
When you touch it?
Do you still hear her name 
When you cock the trigger?
Do you still have the bruise 
From the recoil?
Do you still smell the acrid gun smoke?
Do you still see her blood 
On your hands?

 
 

Do you still fantasize about her death?

Do you still wish you had killed me?

1996